By Hieromonk Damascene
Many of us get stuck in a rut in our spiritual
lives. Usually this comes down to one thing: we have our central sins, our
favorite passions, that we just do not want to give up. These passions have
become so much a part of us that we think it is impossible to be rid of them.
But it is not impossible. Christ said, Be of good cheer; I have overcome the
world (John 16:33). With His Grace-filled help, we can overcome the passions—which, as we have seen, comprise one of
the meanings of the term “the world” in Holy Scripture.
The problem lies with us. The problem is that,
deep down, we feel that we have a “right” to our favorite passions. “I have a
right to be angry,” “I have a right to be resentful,” “I have a right to this
sinful little pleasure,” or whatever it is. Deep down, we do not want to give
up our passions.
So the question comes down to this: What do we
really want? Do we want to stay in our ruts, so that we can freely indulge our
pride, our self-love, our self-righteousness, our desire to be right, our anger
and resentments, our sinful pleasures? Are they so important to us that for
their sake we will abandon the possibility of an authentic life in Christ?
What do we want? Do we want to be fashioned
after the passions of this world, which pass away, or do we want to have Christ
dwelling within us, re-creating us into new beings who will dwell with Him and
in Him forever?
To get out of our ruts and get back on the
path of transformation and deification, we must cast off everything that
separates us from God. Spiritual life is like traveling upstream in a rowboat.
The world, the flesh and the devil push against us and against our progress. If
our boat is burdened with the weight of our cherished sins and passions, we
will not get anywhere. In fact, we will go backwards, and we might even sink.
So, what we have to do is to jettison the cargo which we cherish so much but
which is holding us back. Then we will be able go forward, toward that which we
were created for: union with God.
